Conversations with the mirror

I looked in the mirror; as I felt disgusted

A face once happy was now sad and rusted

Those eyes that once were bright were now dim in fear and doubt

The fearless voice inside had now forgot how to shout,

“Where have you gone?” I shuttered as I say

As the reflection replied, “You were the one to drift me away”

 

I chased success in every step as I wore the success crown

But the society willingly pulled and banged me down

I lost my confidence as I was taught to live in fear and shame

I learned to loose the girl who knew my actual self and name.

 

“You left me here” unknown from the truths that last

You buried your true reflection here beneath your past

You were forced to loose your worth for a fake gold

As you changed yourself to fit in the societies tiny mold.

 

I still recollect the traded dreams across the sea

As I lost my sparking fire trying to plea

I once spoke my heart of truth without any fear or pain

But now I cry-out the heart of lies in the pouring midnight rain.

 

You broke me down to built something that wasn’t yours

It was certainly a dream- of theirs that did no cures

To you or your future but it only got shattered into many pieces

That could never be fixed to bring back the same old bliss.

 

I did weep for someone- the girl I knew

The kind, wild, brave and always true

Who tried everything and never gave up- then

The one who was motivated to fall and rise over and over again.

 

I now listen to your voice while all emotions I feel

I promise to hold you close, as for new chance I appeal

I see a different face in the mirror, as old shadows it shows

I stand in-front with stitched emotions no-one actually knows.

 

The mirror showed the lines every second had grown

But also the strength within me I’ve never known

This time not washed in guilt and not dulled by pain

Fierce and with steady stare my eyes looked like hers again.

 

“There you go”- a ray flickered as your eyes held a spark

I see you’ve a light reborn within-eliminating the dark

This time I will not leave myself behind

The girl I lost in the past, In myself I will find!

 

 

-Smarika Pandey

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